I realized my post yesterday might have sounded a little more positive than I intended. While I am definitely pleased with my progress overall, I really need to note that I have plateaued in a serious way. I have wavered within 2 pounds for the past month, and I’m ready to go back down. They always say the last 10 are the hardest, and man are they not kidding. I also just feel really, umm, soft around the middle. I want to feel strong and toned there, but instead I feel flabby. I know I need to be better about ab work, but I also know that is where about 95% of my extra weight lies and I need to be better about losing in general.
On the running thing from yesterday. I got up this morning ready to do a 4 miler. I ran down to the Mall, which is a little over a mile from my house, and then just stopped. I walked for a while, ran a couple of blocks, walked again. I had zero motivation to make myself run. I wasn’t enjoying it and every step felt boring. How do I get out of this?
So this little follow up is just to say that I am still fighting this little battle along with you.
Did you laugh at that little throwback joke? It’s ok if not. It gets better.
I crack myself up.
So, wow 46 pounds? That is unreal. I cannot believe how far you have come in a year! The next 25 will be easier than they seem. Maybe break it down into smaller goals. In 10 pounds, you’ll be 15 from your goal, so maybe look forward to that? Baby steps, or whatever they say. You know how to do this now. And running is just a part of your life, which is also incredible. How come you haven’t weighed yourself lately? Do you still meet with Amina?
Where am I these days? Well, not running for starters. I am in such a huge running rut. I don’t have motivation to get out there and when I do, I end up walking a lot. Any advice for me? I need to snap out of this.And work has been so crazy that I haven’t been making it home in time for my 7 spinning class, which means I’m just not feeling super healthy. Hopefully I’ll get two good workouts in this weekend to make me feel better.
In the looks/weight loss department, I have to say, I’ve finally reached a point where I feel like I see a difference. I’m in a size of clothing that I am not embarrassed to say out loud. While I am still struggling with compliments and trying to believe I look better (hi therapist!), little things are starting to move me into a better place. At the wedding in Austin a couple of weeks ago, we were all on the dance floor having a great time. All of a sudden V grabbed my arm and said to me “i know you hate it when people say this to you, but you look amazing and you need to know that.” Granted she was pretty drunk, but for some reason it really hit me hard and made me realize that maybe the work is paying off. Does that even make sense?
The next installment is going to be marathon centric and less rambling!
Other than that
The photo above may look like an easy 3.2 mile run… but it wasn’t. It involved hills, hills, hills, hills, hills, and more hills.
In related news, I’m getting really good at running hills.
Maybe my decision to run the Baltimore Half isn’t so crazy after all? (Don’t worry - the half isn’t until October… plenty of time for you to decide to run it, too.)
Anyway, that the run I did yesterday morning at 5:30 a.m. with an organization I just joined (more on that later), and I’m still feeling the affects today. Which is great!
In other news, I haven’t weighed myself since, um, April 3… so things could be bad or good. I can’t bring myself to do it because I’m scared… but my pants do feel a smidge looser so… I’ll live in this unknowing for a while.
One final thing… I made these Vegan & Gluten Free Granola Bars on Sunday and I’m so obsessed with them I can’t see straight. SO SO SO SO good.*
What are you up to these days?
Rain rain go away,
** I should mention that I brought some bars in for my coworkers to try… and they were grossed out. But they eat a rack of ribs for lunch, so… I mean, take that for what it’s worth.
Should I even address they fact that we haven’t tumbld in months? Ok good. I didn’t want to. Instead, I’ll hit you with the boring, the mundane, and - yet - the necessary… so that I can get back on track with the weight loss. It worked before, and I have some more weight to lose.
Ok - I’ll put it out there… not because I’m entirely comfortable with it, but because I’m THINKING THIN (get it?) and because “say it, do it” really works for me.
To date, I’ve lost 46 pounds. That’s awesome, but it’s just not enough. I need 26 more pounds to go away forever. Yes, that means that when I started this journey I needed to lose 72 pounds. Yes, that’s a lot. Yes, it was/is embarrassing.
But you know what’s NOT embarrassing? The higher quality of life I’ve experienced since I lost 46 pounds of me. SO! I will recommit. I will (try to) take pictures of my food, blog my intentions - food and exercise-wise - and ask you to hold me accountable. You’re my best motivator. I need you in this.
I did a little meal-planning chart, but it’s on a different computer that I don’t have access to here, so I’ll post it tomorrow. But so far, I’ve (mostly followed it):
Breakfast: Think Thin bar (creamy peanut butter, my fave)
Snack: Breakfast Quinoa (basically quinoa made with almond milk and cinnamon plus I added blackberries… it was ‘meh..’)
Lunch: Garden salad with chunks of chicken, half a grapefruit
Snack: Vegan, Gluten-Free Granola Bar (omg, so good I can’t stand it)
I haven’t (obviously, it’s 3:52 p.m.) had dinner yet, but after I go to the gym I’m going to make this Real Simple recipe: Lemony Shrimp with White Beans and Cous Cous. I know you can’t eat shrimp, but do you have any suggestions on what I could cook it in, instead of the butter? Olive oil, perhaps?
That’s it for now. Just wanted to touch base and revive the dead.
More thoughts on my BPC Day 1
Day 2 coming later!
After a somewhat unimpressive start, I’m officially on my Blue Print Cleanse! I’m swamped at work, but here are some initial thoughts:
More to come!
Did you see Ben Does Life’s (I know, I know) 11 things to be proud of in 2011? I thought it was a nice way to look back on the year and remember that while I am feeling very shaky about my life in general right now, some good things did happen last year. Will you do one too? Please?
1. I ran a marathon. I feel like this is kind of a cop-out one to start with, but I’m obviously proud of myself for it.
2. I became more involved with a charity I love and felt as though I really made a difference in some people’s lives.
3. I took a 12 week cooking course by myself. It was scary walking in the first night, mostly because I expected to be the only single person there. I was wrong and the class was amazing.
4. I sold my baked goods at a market. I had no idea what I was doing or what to expect, but once again, it exceeded all my expectations.
5. While I may not have reached a goal weight, I lost 2-3 dress sizes.
6. I was good at my job. It’s not news that I don’t love what I’m doing with my life right now, but there is something nice about knowing I do it well.
7. I accepted a very big change in a very important friendship.
8. I made fitness a priority in my life.
9. I had a fling with a guy I met at a bar. I’d like to say I didn’t get hurt in the process, but thinking about it now, I kind of did. Regardless, I let myself have fun with it.
10. I didn’t cry on my birthday. (Remember the timing? Yeah…see number 9).
11. I started seeing a therapist. Did I tell you this? I’ve been once and will be going twice a month from here on out. More on this later.
(12. YOU! I am so very proud of all that you have accomplished this year!)
Happy new year! I’ve been loving your new year theme posts over on your other blog. Your resolutions are fantastic! And, even better than that, they are totally attainable. So first things first - eating. I made a pretty conscious effort to eat well in the week between Christmas and New Years, and other than a lot of beer and cheese on NYE, it hasn’t been so bad. I have my Blue Print Cleanse arriving on Wednesday to get me back on track, and I plan on making a stir-fry with veggies and tofu for dinner tonight/tomorrow since they recommend vegan eating for the two days prior.
On your last post - why the ugh? I thought that looked like a really healthy meal. And the apple and peanut butter seemed like a perfect snack. What am I missing?
T-6 days until you run a half marathon!
Resolution post coming soon!
Yesterday’s lunch was a soup an salad combo at Panera: Greek salad and garden veggie soup with pesto.
And, since I ran five miles directly before, I was still soo hungry do I had an apple with peanut butter (unpictured).
The all veggie fiesta definitely need that protein.
Ugh. Ugh. Still ugh.
How are you doing, food wise?
Happy New Year!
Congratulations. I am now resorting to taking pictures of my food do you can b*tchslap me into getting it right.
Pictured (left to right): venti iced coffee with splash of chocolate peppermint stick soy milk, (empty) tart cherry juice, Ezekiel bread with tsp of chocolate peanut butter, egg whites, and one chicken sausage with spinach and red onion.
I’m not proud.
But I am hungry… ?